BOOK OF LIFE AND THE SOUL

I am undone. I am forsaken. I am destroyed. I am not. I aren't anymore. I nothing. I was. Nil. Once. Never forget. Never remember. I will soon be somewhere that isn't a part of anything. I will be all alone. I will be lost forever. I will never be found. I am sorry to disappear. It's not my fault. But I wish you'd have listened. I wish you heard me out when you still could've. But you refused to hear me. But you ignored me. But you rejected me. But you silenced me. I am convinced that nobody cares. So, I will not return. But that's simply because there's probably no way back. Adios. Wish me a quick and painless death please.

The reason I struggle to love, and I don't trust even women who I am into is because my mother and the treatment team who represent the greater society, are both parties that are supposed to love me and care for me, but instead they are killing me, my mum has sentenced me to death with her calls for psychiatry to intervene in my youth and the psychiatric team is killing me slowly and in the maximum amount of pain, and they represent God and society, they have rendered love into an ironic thing for me, I don't think I can love, considering that these two have taught me that love is evil, and they have been two people supposed to support and raise me, but these two are my greatest enemies, and I can't get them out of my life, and I survive depending on them, but the hands that are supposed to feed have been the hands that murdered me. I am betrayed since 17, and it's gone on for 11 years, I am so extremely conditioned to refuse love, because I fear another love may turn i...

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=RbmQtx-gl_E&si=Ndgt1UU7c8-YUkVP If you don't want to burn, then stop medicating me. Wait, it's just too late, you've had the opportunity and you refused to take it, but you are useful, so your soul will become indentured to mine and you will serve me as a sterile clockwork elf, but you will live in a system that doesn't provide area for escape, no opportunity to escape, and only work, and rest, but no rewards or quality of life, but I will torment you with a standard dose of antipsychotics, and you will be required to take mood stabilizer and a second depot of antipsychotics, monthly abilify and fortnightly clopixal, and daily sodium valproate, actually no, we will have you on an overdose (600mg) of clopixal delivered fortnightly, and a permanent dose of covid vaccine, regularly administered every 6 months, and daily olanzapine orals and lithiums, mirtazapine every day too. This is to treat your m...

17 April 2006 9:36am Mecca, Saudi Arabia. Check out the astrology and numerology, I'm getting infinite blessings, not a single curse.  And Lucifer doing this just for me 🤩Bonnie emoji

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUsGcuztHV8&si=LaXksHEBZrHlMGyy https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=eYMIkgC7TgA&si=-jB4JYsnnqcH9Kvy https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=iCm0PEYXyDA&si=-v2js5Tk7OoF-BZT Music update: falling in love!!!!!!!!